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It's an odd feeling. As I look at the clock, Noelle is just turning 12 years old.

I remember her at about age four, still needing an escort to the bathroom in the middle of the night. One night, when it was my turn to provide her with company while she walked to and from the bathroom, we had a wonderful conversation. After I got her settled back in bed, we stayed up for a while, about an hour, just talking.

At one point, I asked her what she wanted to be when she grew up. Without any perceptible hesitation, she replied, "I want to be a pony."

And here I sit, at 3 o'clock in the morning, missing that little girl so very much.

I love who she's become, and I feel, in some way, that she and I grew up together - she with her adolescence and me with my manhood. But I still miss that tiny girl who actually enjoyed wearing a dress.

I see that this is trite, which I'm not big on, but there's a certain reality to it. I guess that's why movies are so universal - we have that collective unconscious thing going on. So I can feel some of you reading my mind, imagining a four year-old Noelle in a knee-length velvet dress that matched her brown curls. I miss four year-old Noelle.

But that doesn't mean that I don't dig 12 year-old Noelle, as she pours her brains into algebra and Japanese and Constantinople, wearing Harajuku Lovers t-shirts and watching episode after episode of The Simpsons. I dig that a lot.

So, as I reflect on life with Noelle, I have the bitter-sweet conflict of wanting to revel in her growth, while at the same time wanting to encase her in glass and put her on the shelf, freezing her at this stage in her life, so I can have the moment live forever.

6 Comments:

lori said...

first off Happy Birthday Noe!!!! Wish we could be there celebrating!!! Second my very favorite of favorites of this post is how you and she grew up together. extremely significant and insightful. and fantastically amazing!!!!! so happy birthday to you too! xoxo

Suldog said...

Happy Birthday, Noelle!

(You know what I think would be a really cool birthday present? If your Dad took down that fugly Yankees logo on his blog. Wouldn't you like that? Well, OF COURSE you would!)

Jacob T said...

happy birthday noe!!!!!!!! (please pass the greetings along)

Barbara said...

Happy Birthday to Noelle. I know how you feel, my son turned 12 in July. We watch the Simpsons everyday now too.

trudy@markfamily.com said...

Happy Birthday Noe!!!! Wish that we could be there to help you blow out the candles on your cake. What I thought was wonderful was when Stu pointed out how you and he grew up together - you into your adolescence - he into his manhood. Just incredible and so true. I love you Noe. I hope that you had a wonderful tme in Long Beach with your friends.

Gram

Sharfa said...

Happy belated b'day Noe!

Do you realize that you are in your 13th year now?

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